| FUCK IT ALL!! |
[Nov. 4th, 2007|03:03 pm] |
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Ok so I'm now in my last year here at Potsdam! Thank god for that!! I fucking hate this place! I'm sooo sick of the childish, self absorbed assholes that go to this school. They all think they are better then everyone! I can't wait to get the fuck out of here!!!! I'm sick of going to classes and being taught things I learned in high school! I need to get out in the real world and make some money. I want to be back home with the friends that really care about me! It seems to me that my "friends" up here only want me around when they need something from me! And if you ask me that's pretty shitty!! I'm done caring about people who don't give a shit about me! I'm just going to keep focusing on my school stuff and get through this last year! I really need to go home soon for break cause I haven't seen my family and friends since August! When you're not happy where you are it's hard to not miss being home.
So Fuck It I don't care anymore! Karma's a Bitch and so am I! Your shit will come back to you three fold! PEACE! |
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| I almost forgot I had this journal.... |
[Aug. 4th, 2007|11:30 pm] |
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So needless to say a lot has happened since my last entry.....
To sum it all up... straight guys tend to treat me like shit. (what else is new). John moved to Westchester County so I never get to see him. I've been home for the summer and having a blast with Kristy and just recently spend a week with my pdam family... Burt, Day, Brian, Marc and George. Soo fun Love them!! I've been going into the city a lot this summer and I so need to live there!
Turns out I'm graduating a year early.. GO Me!! So this will be my last year at SUNY Pothole lol. I'm really into this guy who lives in Philly and it's kinda heart breaking.
Well that's it for now I'll try to post again soon. PEACE! |
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| Back to Pdam |
[Nov. 27th, 2006|08:50 pm] |
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Well now I'm back up at school... I couldn't believe how much I missed Potsdam when I was home this last break! I have some of the best friends up here!! It doesn't get any better up here when you have Pdiddles, BBarnes, LC, and my black man!!
When I was home things just didn't seem right... The only time I felt that things were ok was when I was with TJ. Don't get me wrong I had a blast with John in the Hamptons, but I guess I'm still not use to him living out there. It was a big change and it happened while I was away so I never really had the chance to get use to it. Tim and Corry are doing great (except for the whole thing with her brother), and they just seem to be in their own little world... I guess that's to be expected when you find someone you really love. I just didn't get to see much of Tim at all this time and that was pretty shitty. TJ was still the same with me.. Nothing changed between us, if anything we bonded more. It's funny how things play out....
Well now that I'm back up here I'm going back to my normal shit... except no opera cause that's over now!! Well classes are getting busy, you know how it gets at the end of the semester. Lexy's show opens this weekend so everyone should come see it and my wonderful lighting design. Then after that it's just catching up on all the work I need to do and studying like crazy for finals.
Then the semester will be over..... I'll have to go home....... What am I gunna do for a month? I'll prob do some stuff at the theatre but other than that I don't know..... I know I'll have TJ, I will be with James P all the time cause that's how it's gunna have to be..... and I'll prob make a few trips out to John. Well I'm gunna stop thinking about it now and go meet the crew in the Union for some dinner.... Peace Out |
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| What a break... |
[Nov. 24th, 2006|12:46 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Dad's house | ] |
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| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Camp- Here's where I stand | ] |
Well so this break has been the break from hell so far!
This is how it's goin:
Driving home and hit lots of traffic
Get home and get blown off by a friend
Get judged by family for my intrest in a certain guy and for being WIccan
Saw Little Shop at CM, which was good and it was nice to see my theatre peeps
Went to the bar with Tim Corry TJ Billy Morgan and the whole crew
Hung out with TJ Billy Tim at applebees
Woke up Thursday to find out that my great aunt died that morning
Later on Thursday found out my good friend Corry's brother got into a car accident and is in critical condition
Later that day my sister acted like a petulant child and pissed me off
now posting a journal....
That's how it's been going......
Peace out bitches... |
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| To Sum it all up |
[Nov. 20th, 2006|02:39 pm] |
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Ok so I've been really bad at keeping up with this journal so let me sum up the last month for ya:
Key Point in no order:
Sister had surgery and is now home getting better
Opera went up and had an amazing run
Opera closed
Started my Lighting Design for Lexy's Show: lookin good
3 Pods and a Pea are going to be living in an apartment next fall (James Jess Brit and me !!! Love Us!!!)
Going home tomorrow!!!!!
I miss Tim, John and TJ like whoa!!!
Me and Sha-Toya had a blast at Marcus's Town House - hung out with Kevin, Marcus, Garth yadda yaddda
Thanks for all the Fish
Went to Opera cast party and was saved from sketchy boy by Roger
Gave Roger an Orange (I love Sailor-Boy and the Falcon) we are so funny
Saw Marcus in a 10 Minute - it was funny he was great like always.
Saw Little Mark's 10 minute - he was funny
Did my Acting 1 performance exam with Gretchen- which went well
Dana wore Lesbian Boots
Helping Brian with a "project"
Lovin my friends and the fact that I have a life back now that the Opera is over!
That's my story
*~*NAY NAY*~* |
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| Wow it's Been Awhile |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|06:14 pm] |
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Ok so It's been awhile since I last posted and it's mainly cause I've been hella busy!! Well a lot has happened......
Went home for October Break
Saw Annie Get Your Gun
Hung out with the best peeps ever
Had a get together with Tim Conway aka the love of my life lol
Asshole Boy moved to NC
Opera has been a lot of work but going strong
Pretty much living at Brian Brit Dana and Marc's apartment
I miss my friends from home
My sis went into the hospital with a burst appendix
Sis Bday shortly after
Kevin came up to visit ... we got married on Facebook lol
and that's the key points in a lot of shit......
Thanks Bye! |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 15th, 2006|03:20 pm] |
| What do you subconsciously think of your friends? |
| Friend's Name | Word Association | Meaning |
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| Brian | Bat | Mysterious, Intelligent, Enigma. This person is hugely alluring to you. |
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| John | Bell | Someone whom you feel may be dangerous to let into your heart. |
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| Cory | Pearl | Beautiful and real - you have a lot of respect for this person. |
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| Tim | Lantern | The person who sees you for you. |
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| George | Wig | You believe this person to be totally insane. (And they SO are!) |
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| Tj | Zoo | The least socially-conventional person that you know. (And, consequently, the most fun.) |
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'What do you subconsciously think of your friends?'
at
QuizGalaxy.com
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| That's Life........ |
[Aug. 18th, 2006|12:42 am] |
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With some bad times in life brings good... Lets just hope the rest of the year is better then it's been..... That is all.... |
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| ALL IS GOOD!!!! |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|08:20 pm] |
Ok so I've been home from school for about 2 weeks now..... I feel like time is flying!! I don't want my summer to ever end!! I'm having so much fun at home.... I'm back working at Theatre Three and I get to see my best friends whenever I want to!! Well right now Theatre Three is putting on Pippin!! The cast is so much fun to work with!! Everyone should come see it cause it rocks!!!
Well me and john are trying to decide what we want to do for our vacation this summer.... So far we are thinking either a cruise to Italy, france and that area..... or California..... or Paris..... or Something fabulous. Well if anyone has any good ideas let me know.
Me and Tim are going to spend sometime in the city seeing shows and stay at a fabulous hotel... I love my timothy!!! Wow I love being home for the summer!!!
Well that's it for now..... I'm going to see John soon and then Tim later tonight .... |
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| Hit the Ground Running |
[May. 23rd, 2006|10:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Aida Soundtrack | ] |
Well I got home on Saturday evening!!! Woot!! That's right I'm home for the summer!!! I was soooo happy to be home!! As soon as I got home I unpacked the car and changed into blacks and went right to the theatre!!!! I was soooooo happy to be back at my home theatre!!! I saw all my theatre peeps and that made me feel sooo much better!!! I'll be Stage Managing a shit load of shows this summer!! Right now we are doing Pippin and Goldie Locks (Children's Theatre)!!!!
Opening Night for Pippin was Saturday Night when I came home and it was soooo much fun cause TIm Conway was the person who filled in for me for Tech Week!! Sunday was Tim's last show with us cause now I take over lol.... But after the show on Sunday Me Tim Conway, Tim David, Maureen and Tee Jai went to dinner and I don't think I've ever laughed that much ever in my life!!! After dinner Tim David Tee Jai and I were going over to CM to pick up keys and then we went over to Conways house for coffee and some fun!! I love hanging out with Conway he is just amazing I love him!!!
Well Monday I dropped my car off to get it fixed then walked down to the theatre to be with TJ in the Box. I hung out there for most of the day then went back to pick up my car and came back to the theatre... We went to TJ's apartment and TJ made dinner for me and tim and we chilled and watched a movie. I feel like my summer is going to be sooo rockin'!!
The thing that really sucks is that I haven't seen John yet cause he's still in Jersey!!! boo that makes Nay sad!!!
Today was kinda a relax day cause it was the first time I didn't have to work or be somewhere. I slept in then went to visit mom. I picked Tee Jai up at 6ish to take him to the train station so he could go see his bf and family for dinner. Then I drove out to Davlin to see Tim and went to dinner with him... Now I'm home and prob going to sleep soon cause I have work in the morning at 9am.
Well Some Good News I got when I came home on Saturday....... This guy from a theatre in California called me and asked me to work out there this summer!!!! I told him I would love to but I already have jobs lined up all summer... so he told me that next summer the offer is still open and that he would love to have me out there!!!! He is going to get a hold of me in January to give me all the details!!! I think that would be amazing to work there!! I just have to see what happens with my other jobs and my theatre stuff in the City too.... I think If I had to choose between working in NYC or California I would choose NYC!!! sry Cali but NYC is home..... I'll see where everything takes me and I know I'll figure it all out!!!
Well that's all kids I'm out.... Cell it if ya wanna hang this summer!!!! Much Love to all!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 16th, 2006|02:27 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Aida Soundtrack | ] |
4 DAYS Till I'm Home On My Lovely Island!!!!!
So it's finals week up here in good old pdam! So far it hasn't been too bad. The majority of my finals are just presentations and handing in portfolios. The only tests I have to take are for Accounting on Wednesday and Comp Friday morning. Thursday I don't have a final so I'll be doing most of my packing then! I already started packing but it doesn't look like it which is kinda crappy.
Well I'll be home Saturday evening and I have to go striaght to the theatre to start work!! Which makes me sooo happy cause I love my theatre!! I'm so ready to be home now!! Well I'm out cause I have to finish another paper due friday and go to another final!! PEACE!!!
PS - BERLIN LOVE PARADE JULY 15TH!!!! I'M MAKING PLANS TO GO WITH JOHN!!! IT'S GUNNA ROCK!!! |
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| I Don't Know What I Want |
[May. 2nd, 2006|09:13 pm] |
Ok so it's coming to the end of the semester and I'll be going home for the summer. I am really excited about it because I get to be home with my friends and go back to work at my theatre!!! BUT I know there are times I'll miss being at school too..... I am still going to try and graduate early, but I want to make the most of my time up here! I'm just afraid that I can't see all the good things that are right in front of my face.... Why does life have to be so complex! I still have issues trusting people and that will take a long time to get over, but that is something everyone just as to deal with..... I've had too many people stab me in the back!! I just hope I don't push away the person I want close!! Well I guess until I figure it all out I'll just keep myself busy with work and theatre stuff..... It will hopefully make me feel a little better...... |
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| Always Fuckin Busy!!! |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|12:05 pm] |
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| | stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Last Five Years | ] |
Ok So here is the deal.... I'm always busy and most nights don't even get time to eat dinner.... I hate when people bitch to me about being so busy and act like I have all the time in the world!!!! This semester has been kinda hellish... I'm taking 19 credits, stage managing two shows, juggling shit with my father's health, missing my best friends at home, having fucking boy issues, had to say goodbye to a friend whom I became very fond of, Crane has the habit of eating my soul, deal with very bi-polar friends, being harassed online again by someone I thought I finally got rid of, the end of the semester is coming very fast and the work load is getting heavier and harder to keep up with, and over all stress is taking over my life...... It's to the point that I have so much on my mind all the time that I can't fall asleep at night! I feel like some of my friends up here at school think that I dropped off the face of the earth..... which is true I've been busy I just hope they know that I still love them!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK..... I shouldn't be writing this I have to go to Crane now..... |
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| What a way to spend the weekend!!! |
[Mar. 4th, 2006|05:19 pm] |
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| | Aida Soundtrack | ] |
Yeah ok so I was pretty sure that my birthday this year was going to be boring..... BOY WAS I WRONG!!!! Wednesday night at 11pm (the night before my bday) I get this phone call from john and he wished me a happy birthday and was all cute and shit...... I GOT THE BEST PRESENT EVER!!!! Kritty called me at midnight like I figured would happen it was funny...... and Clem gave me a bunny which was soo cute....... I got a really cute package from my ma and sis and I loved it!!
Yesterday I hung out with the 420 Bitches and we all had a blast!!! my bday week has just been a lot of fun and the best thing is I get to come home on Friday WOOOOOT!!!! I just have one week of classes left to get through!!! YESSSSS!!! |
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| Busy Busy Busy..... |
[Feb. 9th, 2006|12:19 pm] |
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| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Songs for a New World | ] |
Omg this semester has been so busy!!! I pretty much go nonstop everday with classes till 5! And ontop of classes I have Tiffany's Choreographer's Concert which I'm stage managing and a shit load of work from my classes. Well this weekend I'll get a bit of a break from campus cause I'm going to Oswego with the girls.
Well I've come to the conclusion that I need to hang out more with Brit, brian, dana and them... cause they are just so much fun!
So in 5 days is Valentines day...... Not exactly my favorite day being as I'm single! Well there is one thing I have to look foward to and that is Feb break cause I get to go home!!!! 9 Days!!! woot!! I miss being home with my boys! Well I'm off to yet another class...... peace.... |
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| Sometimes you just wonder...... |
[Jan. 27th, 2006|03:11 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Showtunes | ] |
So today has been one of those days where you just sit back and start thinking about things....... I know for me that's prob not a great idea considering there is so much messed up in my life that I just don't tell anyone about. I think a lot about what happened over my break with some of my best friends..... I think a lot about the family issues..... I think about way too much depressing stuff. My last day of break was prob one of the most drepressing and exciting (all at different points of the day) days I've ever had. It all started off with me and my mom going to visit my cousin's grave. After we spend some time there we went to go see my grandmother who we know only has about 4 months left..... after that I went back to my cousin's grave alone.... When I tried to get myself out of that depressing slump I went to hang out with Tim, John, Clem, Brad and Nicole. I ended up going to my theatre to say goodbye to more people and around midnight a group of us ended back at tim's house.... Being at tim's house I got pissed off at some things and then SHA-BAM! I don't know what to think I don't know what to do...... I ended up leaving to come back up to school semi-happy/confused/depressed. What a way to start a new semester right?! |
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| Back in Potsdam |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|04:45 pm] |
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Yeah ok so I'm back up in potsdam!! Yeah I love it up here but I do miss my lovers at home!!! I had a really good break!! Well now that I'm up at school i figured might as well work hard lol so now I'm taking 19 credits including a violin studio, stage management, accounting, lighting design, foundations of design for stage, and of course my out of class activities..... I love it though..... Ok well I'm off to a theatre guild meeting.... Love to all.... |
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| Starting the New Year the right way!!! |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|05:36 pm] |
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I have to say this new year was started off the right way.... I was with my best friends at theatre three, worked on a funny show, good wine, lots of fun, and well lets just say when that ball dropped I got a nice welcome into the new year!!! O Man I think this year will be a good one!!!! |
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| I Know the musical lol |
[Dec. 15th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | I'd give it all for you - songs for a new world | ] |
Ok so I'm leaving tomorrow to come home yeah!!!! I can't wait..... I really wish I could be in Boston For Kritty's Bday. I was just glad John could be there. Well now finals are done and no stess on Nay Nay!! Woot! well this is short and sweet cause I'm goin to watch a movie with George! Yeah sleep over with George...... yes this one is gay too (for all of my non-pdam peeps) lol. Much Love to all...... |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|10:02 pm] |
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Ok so now I'm done with classes and next week is finals week!! I have finals on tuesday, wednesday, thursday. This weekend is going to be soo busy it will start with much studying followed by packing up my whole room!!! Damn that sucks!! I have to put all my shit in a storage closet in the basement of Bowman East! Next semester I'll be a resident of Knowles South!! Woot! I can't wait to be with all my friends!! I do have to say I'm really going to miss my kickass RA and my roomate. Lexy you rock my socks and you'll have to come visit me!!
Well more good news is that I'll be getting a car on Saturday!!! I have to go to PA to pick it up though! my grandparents got a good deal on a car for me!! Merry Christmas Shannon!! Well I should start organizing all my shit and start packing it up..... Peace! |
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